The Crone Speaks:
To know me, first know this ~
In the beginning, as in the End there is Nothing
There is Nothing
Behind your ordinary world
Behind all manifestation
Lies the Void
I am the emptiness surrounding the universe
I am the uncertainty of the electron
I am the nothingness hiding in your soul
In the Void you have no name
Words do not exist
You have no memory, no past or future
Time does not exist
You find no landmarks, you have no body
Matter does not exist
You may still exist
A mere spark of awareness
But that is enough
That is where you begin
In the Tarot of the Crone, the Fool has become a small star falling into endless space. The everyday sunlit world is left behind to begin again, to return to the Source. For the Void, although it itself contains Nothing, is the space from which All emerges.
Voluntarily or involuntarily, consciously or unconsciously, a force beyond our small selves impels us now to start upon a new path. One in which we cannot predict the final destination, or possibly even the next step. We cannot depend on our normal reference points or our usual ways of thinking or behaving. We may begin to suspect that we are about to become someone other than who we have always believed ourselves to be.
A return to the Source requires our outer forms to dissolve. This provides us an opportunity to discover our indestructible essences, our souls, and to feel ourselves again as fresh and ancient and unlimited.
An incredible opportunity. And yet we often feel lost when we fall into the Void. What is happening to us makes no sense. For being as a child again, being where nothing is known for certain - this is a hard hard place. Can we truly trust in the Universe? What does it mean for our lives to be given over to Powers outside of our selves and our control? Don't most of us want to hedge our bets?
But in the Void, we cannot. In our fall, we cannot keep a toehold in the sunlit world. For this Unknown is not only what is not known, but what cannot be known. It contains us more than we contain it.
Remember that this emptiness and confusion exists in order to make room for something new to come. Trying to fill the emptiness with food or people or television or shopping will not bring us closer to understanding. We are being remade. We must begin again.
Remember also there is a part of us that wants this, that welcomes it, because it knows becoming formless and timeless is what we need to create a new future. To know that the same Power that can propel us into Nothingness will also catch us when we fall. There is nothing for us to do right now but trust.
And revel in the freedom and boundlessness of eternity.
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